Mix emotions today

This morning I had breakfast with my accountability group so from a little after 0800 until about 1045 I was out of the house and felt pretty good. I got there a little early so I walked for fifteen minutes or so and it felt good.

Kathleen had her physical therapy appointment at 1300 today so while she was getting dressed I made myself something to eat before we left. She was very emotional today, crying for no apparent reason and not able to control it. She also was not feeling well, her stomach hurt and so did her head. The arm almost always hurts, so I do not even count that.

When we got to physical therapy she started to cry, and they asked her if she just wanted to forget therapy today and go home. She needed to have her range of motion checked today so they had to do that so that they could send it to the doctor for her appointment Tuesday.

I suggested that perhaps the therapy might be beneficial to her and that since she had to do the most unpleasant part anyway she might as well do the exercising. She did and while she did not feel better, she did not feel any worse.

Kathleen asked if we could stop at Target and get a mango smoothie, since we had not done that in a while I decided to stop there, besides we needed to stop at Safeway and get some of her special coffee and they were in the same strip mall.

Fewer and fewer places are carrying the coffee that she likes so we have to keep on finding new places. Last week I checked on line to find out who was still carrying it and it looks like Safeway and Albertson are the only two close by that are carrying it now.

Well we finally made it home about 1645. I had planned to mow the front lawn today, but I was really tired. After I changed my clothes and sat for fifteen minutes or so I decided, I better get up and get outside as no one else was going to mow it for me.

I even parked the Wrangler in the driveway this morning when I got back from breakfast, so I did not have that as an excuse for not mowing it.

I even mowed it twice, once to rake the leaves and then I dropped the height and mowed it again to cut the grass.

After cleaning up and sitting for another half hour, I decided to make dinner. I made ravioli, and corn on the cob. It only took about fifteen minutes total...about five minutes quicker than Alyssa's Blackened Tilapia Sautéed Zucchini and Onions Dot Noodles, which took her 20 minutes. It probably was not as taste though.

After dinner, I cleaned up the kitchen, did the hand wash dishes, finished loading up the dishwasher, and turned it on.

Well, that was my day, I am tired now and I think that I will head for bed...good night!

Things are greening up again!

After I got up this morning, I went out with Reggie and I noticed that the grass was starting to green up once again. I made waffles for breakfast and then went and read the paper.

After a while I went out to the garage and gathered up the things that I had set aside for Goodwill and loaded them into the SUV. The mail came in the mean time so I read that and took care of a couple medical insurance issues. Then I went and dropped the things off at Goodwill.

That is four trips to Goodwill in about a week, at this rate I will eventually get the garage cleaned out and maybe I will be able to park a vehicle or two in it. Who knows, I may even be able to work out there and not have to move half of the garage to do it.

When I got back from Goodwill I cooked up a couple sausages for lunch and than I went out and mowed the back yard. The grass has not started to grow yet, but the weather is cool enough now that I felt that I could lower the height down and not worry about the grass being too short.

I was going to mow the front yard, but I did not feel like moving the Wrangler...maybe tomorrow. I put the mower away and thought that I would move a few things around so that it would be easier to move around in the garage. If I can get enough space cleared out I will be able to install the pulley system so that I can hang the hard top in the summers when I have the soft top on the Jeep.

When I finished and went into the house, Kathleen had started making dinner. She wanted mashed potatoes so I mashed them for her. Kathleen had cooked up some chicken and onions, so we had a very nice dinner.

Kathleen seemed to be better today; her emotions were not running the full spectrum as they had been for the last couple of weeks. Maybe the medications are doing their jobs...I can only hope.

Well, I think that is about it for tonight, good night!

Looked like rain all day

I slept in again today. After getting up, I made breakfast and read the paper and mail when it got here. Kathleen was still sleeping so I went out to the garage and loaded up the SUV with some more things for Goodwill.

I checked upstairs and Kathleen was still sound asleep so I left her a note telling her that I was dropping that stuff off at Goodwill and then took off. I got back home about 1230 and Kathleen had just gotten up.

I made myself some lunch out of some of the leftover steak from last nights dinner. After eating, I paid a couple of bills online, then went out to the garage again, and sorted out some more things to take to Goodwill. I think I have enough for another load.

I cleaned up for dinner, chili and corn on the cob. We ate early tonight as we had a church business meeting at 1900. The meeting got over about 2030, but by the time I helped clean up and we left it was after 2100.

So I checked my e-mail and looked to see if there were any new blog entries and Alyssa had one so I paged through it and then decided I had better get started on my own.

That is pretty much how my day went, and now it is time for bed. So good night and have a great day!

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Physical Therapy Day!

I had taken some nightguil last night as I felt my sinuses starting to close up on me before going to bed last night, so I slept until about 0730 this morning.

I did not get much done this morning except make breakfast, read the paper and the mail. I helped get Kathleen ready for her appointment and drove her there. Once she was checked in, I went up to her doctor’s office to pick up a couple prescriptions for her.

She seemed to do well at therapy, so afterwards she wanted to go to Jo~Ann Fabrics to use some of her coupons. So we looked around for some wool batting and some handles for a purse she wants to make.

After what seemed like a couple of hours she started to get hungry so we checked out and headed to Fred Meyer to get her prescriptions filled and pick up a couple of steaks for dinner.

I broiled the steaks, mine only about half as long as Kathleen’s and scrubbed a few potatoes to microwave. The steaks were really good.

Kathleen is now taking a muscle relaxed as well as her pain medication, so after dinner she dozed on and off for most of the night. She also is complaining about the pain, so the next day or two will be more of the same.

Well, I have run out of things to say and I am getting too tired to think of anything else, so I guess it is time to say good night.

Back online!

Wow...it's almost been a whole week since I have been online, blogging or anything of the sort. What did I miss? It'a amazing what one can accomplish without a computer in the house. I am caught up on laundry, the kids' rooms are clean, the kitchen is mostly clean, living room, family room and entry clean...bathrooms...not clean...yet! I even did some scrapbooking. We just got our computers back tonight and thought I would stop by and say hello. I think I will wait until tomorrow to add to my blog.

Goodnight,

Alyssa

Rain and than Sunshine!

I must have been really tired yesterday, I slept about 10 hours. It started raining about 0230 this morning and rained on and off until around noon. The rain made the room darker than usual and it felt earlier than it really was.

I got up about 0730 and made myself some cereal, juice and coffee. After reading the paper and the mail I decided that I needed to go out to the garage and try to sort out some of my auto stuff, like was, polish window cleaners and the like.

So I put together a shelf and started to pull the piles apart. I found many things that I had forgotten that I had. After sorting out the garden stuff from the automotive stuff, I started to put the automotive stuff on the shelf and sorted them out by type of product.

I was able to combine many of the same things and filled up a recycling tub with the empty plastic containers. Some of the stuff I just dumped because either it had dried up or there was not enough left to worry about.

I even found some things that I had gotten for my old sports car, which I could no longer use. Finally, about 1600 I decided to wrap things up. I had not eaten lunch and was starting to get hungry. I also was starting to get tired, so it brought things back into the garage and decided to finish it another day.

I washed a garbage can that I had filled up with dirty rags that I use for washing and waxing the vehicles. By the time, they finished drying I was really ready to stop for the day.

Kathleen heated up a couple of potpies for dinner and after dinner; I fell asleep in the chair in the living room. I think I was reading a magazine, which did not help.

I just got up and decided that I had better write this or I might not get it done tonight. That said I think that I will say good night.

Just a couple of words here – I found, once again, that trying OTC pain relief makes for a difficult day. I tried it again Saturday which was a waste. The pain gets a bit dull but continually nags at me and I get whiney. Whinier. Ask Bob, no, don’t ask Bob…. The actual break isn’t the source of much pain any more but the muscles, tendons, ligaments, blood vessels, red and white corpuscles, you name it, whatever resides in my right arm and shoulder are not happy with the use they are getting and not much besides heat helps... and Rx pain pills. I guess this means another call to the Doc. The last Rx was for fewer pills and it was supposed to last a week longer. I hate being dependent on them, but, for now, I guess I am.

Yesterday I picked up my copy of Faith for a Lifetime, the Women of Faith Devotional I got last year. I was trying to see if it would point me in a way which would help my frustration. I mistakenly turned to today's page but wouldn’t you know what it said was, “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” 1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18. (Actually it had a type-o and said ‘in everything give things’ which isn’t bad either.) I can pray and I can be thankful but that ‘rejoicing always’ stuff just isn’t happening. Rejoice - To feel joyful; be delighted; to fill with joy; gladden. This is definitely not happening.

One of the reasons I want to use OTC pain meds is to get away from the numbing the Rx stuff gives me. However, it is the numbing that keeps me from being as grouchy from the pain.

Another definition of rejoice was ‘be very happy about something’. Pain tends to keep me centered on myself and I know I need to find a way to get beyond me – and that means doing something.

Yesterday I did do a bit of mending and that was a major accomplishment. I had a new pair of PJs that was too long for me. I was putting them in the wash when I noticed the bottom couple of inches of the pants were filthy from being worn by a short woman. I took a deep ‘growing’ pleat above that and now they fit. I know I’m not going to need to let them down some day but it got the job done quickly. I was going to put on another pair of PJs that were too long. The elastic had come unstitched, making them longer yet and I was putting up with it until last night. I cut off the waistband and re-applied the elastic. I don’t know how many of you can relate to this but it is just wonderful to not be tripping on my PJs - especially now. I don't need to fall again. It wasn’t that it was so difficult to fix but it did mean that I had to do it.

Well, the ‘couple of words’ seemed to stretch, as usual. I did have a great time at Tami and Aaron’s today. It is delightful to have them so close – about 52 blocks away. Toni and Chucky brought the salad and the newest addition to their family – Spooky. Toni says she gets spooked by everything. It was fun to play with a kitten again. Alexis and Becca really loved playing with her too, but the kitty preferred to sleep. She was a feral kitty they had rescued from where they live. The vet said she would have died from fleas if they hadn’t taken care of her. She is black with a tiny bit of white in her ears, is between two and three months old and is mostly ears. Aaron and Tami’s cat, Jasmine, was definitely not happy to have a visitor - maybe because they are both females.

It is time for me to go to sleep. It took Bob his usual 1 ½ minutes to fall asleep about two hours ago. It takes me much longer to wind down at night because I'm usually feeling much better than I do the rest of the day. I would love to feel as good in the morning as I do at night….

Kathleen

Sunday September 17th 2006

Kathleen was sleeping pretty soundly when I went upstairs to see if she was going to go to church and Sunday School this morning so I let her sleep, she probably needed the rest.

I got home a little after 1100 and she was awake. I gathered up some light colored clothes and did a load of laundry, as I did not get a chance to do them the other day when I was doing the laundry.

Aaron called after they got home from church to see if Kathleen was feeling well enough to make it to their house for dinner, she said she was.

I really did not do much except the laundry this afternoon, but I found myself taking a nap in the chair this afternoon, I think I have run out of reserve and am tiring more easily.

Tami had made a couple of enchilada casseroles for dinner that were very good. We had stopped by Winco and picked up the makings for hot fudge sundaes for dessert and that topped off a very good meal.

Toni and Chucky were there with their new kitten that they rescued, it sure was tiny and frail looking. The grandchildren really enjoyed her.

Well, like I said, I did not do much today, so I guess that I will just say good night and have a great new week.

Almost autumn

It is hard to believe that it is almost autumn already, I feel like I missed the summer. I know that I went through the motions of summer, but between my own recovery and taking care of Kathleen, I feel like I missed summer this year.

Before I know it, the rainy season will be upon us and that means almost nine months of sun depravation. I was so worn out this summer that I did not get to do many of the things that I enjoy doing. Typically, Kathleen and I spend some time at the coast in early September after school starts, and this year we have missed that, we will be lucky to make it in October.

Oh well, on with life. This morning was the first Men's Breakfast at church for the Fall season. I helped with the cooking duties and as I was doing that I realized that all three of us men had been in the hospital for one thing or another in the last three months. I think that is a sign that the cooking staff is getting old, although I am the youngest of the regular five that head up the breakfast crew.

I got there just a little before 0700 and did not get out of there until a little after 1100. It is always tiring, but a lot of fun and very enjoyable.

Aaron asked if Kathleen and I would like to go to their place for a 1600 meal tomorrow, but right now, it kind of depends on how Kathleen feels. She got up a little while after I got home.

I worked outside most of the afternoon, cleaning up the area just outside the back door and digging or chopping out some of the sucker trees that have been growing in the yard for the past couple of years. I have to do this a couple times a year, and this year I did not get it done until now.

I made sausages and tater tots for dinner tonight…really nutritious!

I also put away the dishes that I had washed a couple days ago and forgot were still in the dishwasher. While cleaning up the kitchen I realized that I probably needed to do a load of towels as well. I just got done folding and putting them away a little while ago.

I guess that is all for today, have a great Sunday!

It rained again today!

This morning I met with the accountability guys this morning for breakfast. We had a good time for breakfast and finished up with a good time of sharing and prayer.

I got home about 1100 and tried to get Kathleen motivated to get dressed and ready for her physical therapy appointment at 1300. We finally left the house about 1255, so needless to say we were a tad bit late for her appointment.

Kathleen has really been emotional lately and she has had a hard time getting motivated to do anything. Some days she cannot motivate herself to get dressed, and that gets her to feel worse about herself… and so the cycle continues.

I thought that she did really well with her physical therapy and she is able to move her arm much more than she could even a week ago and much better than a couple of weeks ago.

Anyway, after her physical therapy she wanted to stop by Kohl’s, Lowe’s and Wal-Mart. So by the time we went to Lowe’s and Kohl’s we were both pretty hungry so we stopped by Taco Del Mar and had a couple tacos apiece. We then went to Wal-Mart to pick up some coffee and cookies that Kathleen likes.

They are either not carrying the coffee any longer or they were out of it, but either way she did not get the coffee she wanted and Wal-Mart was one of the last places still carrying that brand.

By the time we got home it was after 1900 and it was too late to start doing anything, so today I did not accomplish much of anything.

Well, that is about it for today, tomorrow morning I get to get up and go to church to make breakfast for our first men’s breakfast since June. We get there about 0700 so that we can serve breakfast by 0900.

Good night.

It Rained Today!

Did not do too much today. This morning I worked outside first washed the Wrangler and then pulled some more of the ivy off the fir trees. I was a little smarter this time as I stopped before I wore myself out completely.

I made my self a couple Polish sausages for lunch and then went out to the garage and sorted some more things to take to Goodwill. I worked under cover, as we had our first real rain in about three months.

After I did all I could for today in the garage I went in the house and vacuumed the downstairs. I am really amazed at how much dog hair there is every day, but more than that I am amazed at the amount of “dirt” I collect every day. I think that a lot of it is being pulled up from under the carpet.

I made some cod, tater tots and corn for dinner tonight and after dinner Kathleen made some peach ice cream with our new Kitchen Aid ice cream maker. We had some and it was really good, it was a little runny yet, but a couple of hours in the freezer will fix that.

Well Kathleen did not have any energy today so she never made it out of her nightclothes so we did not do any running around today…probably a good thing.

I think that is about all for today…see you tomorrow.

A somewhat productive day

This morning I got up about 0600, I think mostly because for the last couple of mornings Kathleen’s car alarm has gone off between 0630 and 0700. It did not go off this morning, but I was awake enough that I could not get back to sleep. The plants needed watering so I did that and then picked some raspberries for my breakfast cereal. I then went inside and had my cereal, juice and coffee.

I needed to rake up the leaves from the front yard again, but I just did not feel like it, so I vacuumed the downstairs. Not quite the same, but it filled the urge.

Later in the morning, I went out to the garage and sorted out more things to take to Goodwill. I got another SUV load full and Kathleen and I even went there and dropped it off. I can now go from one side of the garage to the other with out injuring myself.

Andrea came over and took Kathleen to “Bed Bath and Beyond”. They stopped off at Rossi farm and brought home some corn for dinner. I had a couple ears and the leftovers from last night. Yummy!

Kathleen had a Fellowship team meeting tonight so I took her to church and then went home and sorted out some more things to take to Goodwill tomorrow. Kathleen got a ride home so I did not have to pick her up.

Well, that is about all for tonight. Have a good night!

The day after

I worked out in the garage a little bit this morning, mostly getting recycling ready to put out for the haulers to take away. I have also been inspired to get some more things ready to take to Goodwill. I just have to list it, box it up and load it into the SUV.

Kathleen had her physical therapy this afternoon so that took a couple hours out of the day. She is doing so much better than she had been even a week ago, and I do not think that she is in quite as much pain, although she might not agree with that.

After her physical therapy session, she wanted to stop by Fabric Depot to pick up a few things. I do not think that she picked up what she stopped there for but she did manage to find some things to buy no the less.

We then stopped by Winco for a couple items that we neglected to get yesterday. When we got home and put everything away Kathleen and I both worked on dinner. I think that this was the first dinner that we made from scratch. No frozen food, no pre-pared meal, just real food. We simply cut up some potatoes, tomatoes, zucchini, onion, and of course garlic and parmesan cheese.

I think we had enough left over for at least one more meal for at least me and maybe even for Kathleen as well.

Well, that was our day, and it is time to say good night!

09/11

Well I am sure that everyone realizes what day this is and I am sure that you all can remember where you were and what you were doing five years ago.

I remember I was still working at Boeing and I was sitting at my desk listening to the radio, while I was working, when they interrupted and said that a plane had hit the World Trade Center. I went to an internet site, caught a live feed from one of the news stations, and watched in horror.

I spent over fifteen years of my youth growing up about 70 miles outside of New York City and I remember the skyline from the harbor. I was really taken back as I could not believe what I was seeing and hearing. My first thoughts were of my family especially some of the extended family aunts, uncles and cousins that lived and or worked in and around the city.

So today with the news shows showing the same pictures again brought back some of the same emotions from five years ago. I had a hard time thinking about doing anything today.

I did manage to load up the SUV with some things to take to Goodwill, and we did actually take the stuff to the drop off center. We also stopped by the bank and straightened out the account that the payment comes out of and then stopped at Winco and did some grocery shopping.

We did not need a lot, but just enough to make shopping necessary. After putting away our purchases, I pretty much crashed. Partly because for the second day in a row Kathleen’s Acura alarm went off and I was not able to get back to sleep.

Well, I am too tired to think of anything else to write about so I will just say…good night!

A very good day!

Today started out like just about every other Sunday, Church and Sunday School in the morning, then home for dinner or at least some kind of food. Andrea called and said that they were going to go look at a house or two that they found on the internet. Then Alyssa called and invited us over for swimming and to visit with the grandchildren…an offer that is hard to turn down.

Now remember that the last time we were going to Alyssa and Dan’s was the very same day that Kathleen broke her arm. So it was almost a trip back into time. While we were still on the phone with Alyssa Andrea called back and said that the house that they looked at really would not work out for them.

Well off we went to Alyssa and Dan’s, Kathleen went into the water, I did not. I did not feel all that well, I thing that I did more physical work than I was ready for yesterday. I did take the older two for a short walk and wound up carrying Zander for a good portion of the “walk”. Later when I was resting in the chair Zander came and curled up on my lap and asked if I could spend the night. I thought that was cute and made my day.

Well, I did not realize it when we came over but Alyssa was having us over for dinner. She had chicken, rice and lentils…it was very good. Toni and Chucky were there as well and Aaron called just as we were serving dinner, so I was able to talk or see all of the kiddos today.

Well, I think that is about it for today, good night and have a great week!

Saturday!

Well today is Saturday so I emptied the dishwasher and then made myself breakfast, I made myself a couple eggs and sausages. Then I spent most of the rest of the morning weeding and pulling out baby prune trees that were growing in the rose garden.

I also pulled the ivy that was growing on the west side of the garage off. I like having the ivy on the ground as I do not have to mow that little strip between our garage and the neighbors driveway, but I have to keep it pulled off the garage at least once a year.

I also washed a couple loads of laundry, dried them, then folded them and put away. Of course I had to vacuum up Reggie fur. I did not do much more than that today, it was kind of a take it easy day.

I think that is about it for today, good night!

It is Friday!

Yep, it is Friday, and for many of you that means the weekend is here. For some of us it is always the weekend!

Today was a special day for us as Alyssa stopped by with the children. I think she just wanted the coupons that I had been saving for her. We had some of the banana bread that Andrea had made and also some rice checks. For dessert, I took the two oldest, Natalie and Zander, out to the raspberry patch and feasted on some of the fall crop.

It was good to see them, they have not been here for quite a while and Zander wanted to “borrow” some of our toys, but we keep them out for all of our grandchildren to play with when they visit. Well I do play with a couple of the toy Jeeps, but usually only with the grandchildren.

After they left Kathleen and I went to Costco, a place we had not been to in about three months. When one considers that we use to go there at least once a week it has been quite a long time for us. Of course, we made up for what we did not spend over those couple of months today.

By the time we got home we were both really tired. Luckily, we had bought some ravioli so I boiled up some and opened up a jar of sauce and we had dinner.

That is about all we did today. I did manage to vacuum the downstairs a couple times today and did a load of dishes, but they are still in the dishwasher. Well I will say good night…see you tomorrow!

A long day!

Well we are just getting home after a long day. This morning I got up early because Kathleen was moaning and groaning and I had already tried to get back to sleep for about an hour.

It was probably a good thing as I needed to water the plants, even thought the weather has cooled off we still have not had any appreciable amounts of rain in a couple of months.

I raked the leaves from the front yard this morning. After I finished and got back into the house and made lunch for myself, I looked outside and the front yard was full of leaves again. The leaves on the walnut trees are so dry that they are falling off a month or so early.

Kathleen had her second physical therapy appointment today, so that took up a couple hours from about 1400 until 1530. After that Kathleen wanted to stop off at Fabric Depot, so that took another hour and an half, and then we needed to stop off at Fred Meyer to get Kathleen’s pain medication prescription filled.

While we were waiting for that to happen, we did some shopping. When Kathleen stopped by to pick up her prescription, they could not find it, so we had to wait another twenty minutes for them to figure out where it was. They finally found it and by this time it was about 1830.

We went back home to let Reggie out because we were going to Andrea and John’s for dinner tonight. Andrea made some pot roast and decided to have us over. John did not get there until about 2000 and we had just started to eat.

We had a good visit and John and I went out to get some gasoline for his truck that was in his shop. Kathleen and Andrea stayed there as Kathleen was looking at a couple of Andrea’s books.

We were going to stop by Alyssa and Dan’s but it had gotten too late. So Alyssa we still have the coupons for you here.

Well, I am tired and I think that I will just say good night!

A First!

A first…Kathleen had her physical therapy yesterday and today is the first day after that she has been able to function. Of course having her hair appointment today probably helped a whole lot.

After her hair appointment we went to DEQ to get Kathleen’s Acura passed and re-tagged. It passed fine and after about ten minutes and $75.00 we were on our way again.

We stopped by GI Joes to get a small weight for Kathleen; she also found a jacket and another exercise device while there. Since we were just about next to the Craft Warehouse, we stopped there as well. Of course, she found a few things there to buy as well.

We were both getting tired so we decided to head for home, but made one last stop to get some gasoline. We were only gone about four hours, but neither one of us had much energy left.

After resting for a little while, I heated up some leftovers for dinner. I think that I have just about finished all the leftovers in the fridge. Tomorrow night Andrea has invited us over for roast beef. It has been quite a while since we have been over there to see their place.

Well, I think that is all for tonight…good night!